Alone again

In a little while from now, if I'm not feeling any less sour. I promise myself to treat myself. And visit a nearby tower, and climbing to the top, I'll throw myself off. In an effort to make it clear to who　ever what　it's like when you're shuttered left standing in the lurch at a church where people saying "my god that's tough she's stood him up. no point in us remaining, we may as well go home, as I did on my own. Alone again naturlly.